I received a beautiful poem written by a dissociative survivor, thanking those who have been kind, supportive, comforting, and helpful.
They have generously recognized both mental health professionals and the supportive community of dissociative survivors.
Part of the beauty of this poem is that while saying Thank You, this trauma survivor has been able to describe the difficulties and struggles of the healing process, even for those who are truly dedicated to their healing. In describing the bumps in the journey, they are gently teaching the helpers about the truth on the other side of the road.
I like that this poem covers the healing journey from a variety of different perspectives.
It’s so heartfelt that I decided that it is an important one to share with you too.
There is very little credit on the part of therapist or other professionals to those of us who are truly dedicated to heal. We often hear about how difficult it is for the helpers, the professionals, all who lend a hand. Some of us truly know how taxing we can be.
To the dedication of those professional whom have stayed with us, we can never thank enough.
I want to say that none of you can EVER know how hard, painful, and difficult journey it takes for the people experiencing the difficulties of DID.
Unless you have experienced it yourself, you can never know.
Talk about extra after hours… we live with it day and night with no vacation. We don’t get paid a penny for any work we do to get better. We live with painful feelings, thoughts, and memories that many people tell us can never be true.
We wonder if these things are real… and question the validity of our minds.
We spend time in the ER, some of us go to psychiatric hospitals for help. We have even been sexually assaulted at one such place.
There isn’t any way to explain an experience at a psychiatric hospital. Even when it helped….. don’t assume unless you have experienced it yourself.
We pay a multitude of money to more than one professional to assist us. This is not an easy task when so few are even willing to take the journey with us. That is a story all in of itself.
We do this though.
Endlessly it seems with just a little bit of hope and an undying yearning for a tiny little bit of relief from our pain. We are willing to travel to the ends of the earth and countless amounts of time, money, not to mention the pain, rejection, and other experiences that are not pleasant that we endured just to get it!
Getting relief has often lead to different negative experiences!
At times, we make horrible mistakes and choose the wrong person to be our guide.
These people take advantage of us. They have lead us to believe false things. Some even have left us with more trauma to deal with.
The times we do see progress and experience just a small crystal of sweet sugar that is helpful… we hang on. With every ounce of strength, courage, we go onward. Holding onto the very thought that there might be more out there… just a little… so we continue.
We remain dedicated. A hopeless romantic with endless ideas that somehow, someway, something, and someone will surely help us out of the hell we have been in.
Each step is heart wrenching. It’s a nightmare you will never experience… and be glad you haven’t. It’s something you could never know.
Then there are a tiny few that have made HUGE differences!
We hang on to their kindness, generosity, and their gemstones of feedback ideas and support! We will never be able to repay you for the gifts you have bestowed. We hope you know that it has not gone unnoticed.
Yes! To you therapists and professionals who do their part… I say to you:
There aren’t enough words to tell you how much we appreciate all that you do.
One day.. maybe.. you can see the hard work we have done as well.
Until then, to all who are going through the journey to healing: a huge thank you! Keep up the great work! You guys are our inspiration! You give us hope and something to aim for.
To all those survivors and those who have been a support:
When the professionals have taken vacation,
When we needed someone in the middle of the night
When I needed shelter, food and money because I had very little
When I needed prayers or comfort
When I needed a shoulder to cry on
When we thought someone who had experienced what we had might just understand
You have given us ideas no one thought of
You have been a phone call, text, email or visit
You have been there… our support.. our rocks, our inspiration, our courage to carrying
You have given above and beyond all expectations
All this time… I appreciate all that you do
Thank you for all that you have done, and to all that you continue to do!
We can never fully comprehend what it is like for the dedication of the therapist or professional helping us.
In turn, they will never know what it is like for those of us truly dedicated to our own healing and happiness…….
Copyright © 2017 Jill Sparks ZD
Maybe you’ve found people in your life who have provided this kind of support for you.
Maybe you are someone who has been in that supportive, helpful role to someone else.
The point is….. the healing process is valuable and deeply meaningful. It’s really not an option, so if you think your moments of kindness are forgotten….. rest assured, they are not!
ZD — thank you kindly for sharing your writing, and for being so open, honest, and genuine about your dedication to healing. Your words and heartfelt emotion are deeply appreciated.
I wish you the VERY best in your healing journey.
Copyright © 2008-2018 Kathy Broady MSW and Discussing Dissociation