I have a question for the dissociative readers of this blog.
I’ve been asked this question, and I have an answer, but I’d rather check with you all instead, just to be sure.
Can you see your insiders on the outside?
Let me explain further.
I know that people with Dissociative Identity Disorder can see their internal worlds. The internal world for dissociative survivors typically has a landscape, several different areas or even layers of busy living existence. There can all kinds of internal people, structures, buildings, houses, landscapes, plants, scenarios, playgrounds, etc. The internal world can be as big and expansive as the dissociative person creates it to be.
Seeing each other inside is common. It sometimes takes some work to be able to do this. Parts of the system that hold a lot of denial about being plural may see only black, or “nothing”. How much the survivor, as a whole, and as individual insiders, can see of their system can be a barometer for how much internal communication and group cohesion they have.
However, do you ever see your “insiders” from the viewpoint as if they are standing outside and separate from your body?
Meaning, do your insiders ever appear to you as if they are standing on the other side of the room?
Do all your insiders have the ability to do this? Or do only certain ones have this ability?
When the vision is of a former perpetrator, how do you explain this? Is this an internal introject showing themselves on the outside? Is it something else? Do you call these visions hallucinations?
It can feel very crazy-making to see people in the room or nearby that you know aren’t actual, real people in the full physical sense. It can be very scary, and confusing.
Has this situation ever happened to you? And if so, how did you handle it?
Your comments are appreciated!
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