I have a question for the dissociative readers of this blog.
I’ve been asked this question, and I have an answer, but I’d rather check with you all instead, just to be sure.
Can you see your insiders on the outside?
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Ā Let me explain further.
I know that people with Dissociative Identity Disorder can see their internal worlds. The internal world for dissociative survivors typically has a landscape, several different areas or even layers of busy living existence. There can all kinds of internal people, structures, buildings, houses, landscapes, plants, scenarios, playgrounds, etc. The internal world can be as big and expansive as the dissociative person creates it to be.
Seeing each other inside is common. It sometimes takes some work to be able to do this. Parts of the system that hold a lot of denial about being plural may see only black, or “nothing”. How much the survivor, as a whole, and as individual insiders, can see of their system can be a barometer for how much internal communication and group cohesion they have.
However, do you ever see your “insiders” from the viewpoint as if they are standing outside and separate from your body?
Meaning, do your insiders ever appear to you as if they are standing on the other side of the room?
Do all your insiders have the ability to do this? Or do only certain ones have this ability?
When the vision is of a former perpetrator, how do you explain this? Is this an internal introject showing themselves on the outside? Is it something else? Do you call these visions hallucinations?
It can feel very crazy-making to see people in the room or nearby that you know aren’t actual, real people in the full physical sense. It can be very scary, and confusing.
Has this situation ever happened to you? And if so, how did you handle it?
Your comments are appreciated!
Warmly,
Kathy
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Copyright Ā© 2008-2016 Kathy Broady MSW and Discussing Dissociation
Some in here do sometimes. See and hear others outside. I just asked about that in the other place. I’m out alone right now and can’t ask anyone that’d tell me and I read in a place that you can’t see or hear others from outside in DID so I’m confused. We got made to have it on purpose by people like alot and maybe that’s why? But I don’t know. What if its not sposed to happen?
yes, recently during a therapy session we were very surprised to see a little girl standing shyly next to the fireplace in our therapist’s office. she is a relatively new alter, so far she doesn’t have a name but she has appeared several times, always in the same place during therapy. once we actually had get up and reposition a chair because it was blocking her view and upsetting her.
11-26-20
Questions..
Is there a way to edit comments.. when I make a mistake?
And..
Are there instructions somewhere on this site about how to put a picture in the box beside our name?
Or..
Any important things I should know about posting here?
RP+ šŗ
Thank you in advance. Sorry if my questions should be posted somewhere else.
Hopefully someone can help you with these questions, RP+…..We are so old school that we have kept “no picture” in our box and our comments are what they are….Are you talking about editing AFTER posting? We just post another saying “Ooooops!” or something like that and then say the correction…..like I said, “We are REALLY old school!”…. š
MissyMing
11/27/20
11-26-20
When I read some comments, it jogs things in my head. More than 20 years ago, I had a wonderful therapist.. K… (not Kathy)… And K is the one who gave the diagnosis. She was a kind, caring, and compassionate T. And she could see the switch when it would happen. And she told me that everything about me changed… she said my face changed, and a bunch of other things… but of course I couldnāt see it, or feel it happening.
Then one day I / one of me got very mad at K. And when I / one of me was leaving her office, I (yes, me) stopped at the bathroom… when I looked in the mirror, it was a very frightening and angry face. Even though I knew it was me, it scared me very much.
Enough.
She moved to another state. She took many of my drawings… the mpd drawings!!! She promised she would return them. Of course I never heard from her again.
Promises. Yes, what good are promises?
Life? Cāest la vie.
RP+ šŗ
We have looked in the mirror sometimes and had trouble recognizing that it is “me”…..I wasn’t angry at the time…but sometimes “feeling” a different age and had trouble recognizing that the “old body” was me….Kind of throws you for a bit….
We are so sorry you lost your mpd drawings….that would be heartbreaking for us as well because drawings can feel VERY personal – a picture of WHO you are…..It would be nice if she came across them and suddenly remembered she was supposed to give them back to you…We hope that happens for you…..Yes – that would be nice!….Is it possible to Google her and find her new office site?….A long shot – but who knows?….It would be nice…..
MissyMing
11/27/20
About 8 years ago i’ve had a one time glimpse of the internal world that turned out to be safe.
It was completely interactive as if i where a part and not the original personality(which is the thing in my case).
I could move through the place, see every detail and had the ability to interact with several of the parts at that time.
There is another part of my system i didn’t go to cause it was an unstable place with significant angry, hurt and destructive parts.
It wouldn’t have been wise to visit that place.
Still it was like i was dissociating at the time i went inwards.
All together it made me to be able to make a floorplan about the internal world so i could show my T’s how my world actually worked and how everyone was related.
Turned out it helped my T’s trumendously just knowing how it worked, who was there in the system and what tasks they had.
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Yes, I have witnessed a small child sitting in rocking chair with a doll. She is my 6 year old. I thought it a tiny bit odd, but she was just sitting there rocking and holding her baby doll. Kinda cool, actually.
I have looked in the mirror and seen someone else in my eyes. more accurately, I can tell when its “me” looking back. and when its another. but I don’t “see” them outside. inside we feel/sense each other more than see.
I have actually looked in the mirror and seen one of my alters looking back. I wasn’t afraid because I knew the image was me. I have also experienced seeing one of my alters standing beside me and I could see through her eyes and mine.
im relly sad I wrote a whole big thing and when i pushed send it got erased,
I feel like I never see anyone, only in drawing expressive I have a little child who is always crying and has a large pool of tears around her. Thrasher the angry one has her/his own look of red and black and all hairy and looks ready to fight although Thrasher only throws stuff all over and makes big violent messes. idon’t see anyone and there is nothing inside. they were all kept from me no parts and no memories til I was almost 40 years old, we’ve been in denial and don’t want to accept this as real, we say we don’t see anyone so we don’t have DID, but I know we do, Im very sad and frustrated a lot, I’m told for me to heal I need to get to know everyone and I don’t want to. I’m sorry too that I don’t want to work with deep trauma either, we just turned 70 and started to try to get help in 1971, thats 47 years of trying to heal, DID didn’t come out til 1990 and I was in the hospital for 3 months at a special DID hospital in colorado. I guess if they kept me there 3 months they thought I had/have it. My pain and trauma has been there a very long time and is very deeply ingrained in who I am,because of that and how much trouble I get in when trying to work on my hardest stuff, I feel I’m too broken to fix. I have no Idea what its like for them inside. sorry for saying so much, Ireally don’t know what I need. I have my regular therapist who is kindly and supportive and he referred me to a trauma therapist to do EMDR, but weve only done that a few times…I think its because were too messed up and need more healing first. and we have a new psychiatrist that is the first one ever that really listens to us. im relly afraid and i cry alot.
Dear Linda,
Thank you so much for sharing with us. I am 63. I found out that I had DID 41/2 years ago. I have been in and out of therapy since 1982. So, I understand the years of not knowing, working on my stuff, denying, and not wanting to know. The thing is Linda, we cannot find our true selves if we turn our backs on our insiders. They are us. We are them. And, I do not know about you but, I would really love to feel whole before my time is up. I am not planning on leaving my earthly body any time soon but, at my age, the timeline is getting shorter and shorter.
You know, I have had a few folks ask me how my childhood trauma can be so present and painful for me. In other words, āyou are an old lady ā your childhood was decades and decades ago ā how can it still be so painful?ā Well, because parts of me are still that little girl who was abused. I did not leave her behind when I grew up and got older. She has cared for me all of these years in holding my precious memories. The narrative of my life may not be a pleasant one but it is mine. But, it will not be wholly mine until I open up my heart and mind to truly see and accept my full, unedited life.
Wholeness comes from seeing and acceptance Linda.
I so understand feeling broken beyond repair but I sincerely believe that we all have a chance at wholeness again. It takes slow, patient and painful work to start gluing all of the pieces back together but, until we do, our vessels will not hold the full essence of our true selves. We deserve that Linda.
I hope that you understand that I do hear and respect the conflict and turmoil that you are feeling right now. I just want to speak to you about hope and the idea that it is never too late to wake up our true selves. It is okay to be afraid. It is okay to cry a lot. We have had a lot to be afraid of and cry about. It would be nice to learn to feel happy and smile too!
ME+WE
10/26/18
Hmmmm…
We have had close encounters with death on many occasions. When blood sugar issues become a problem, it becomes more obvious.
Yes. We have seen the others on the outside. It has happened mostly when we encountered close calls with death.
It has happened other times, but the experience is much more vivid and memorable for us when “rescued”.
We see everything about them, not only that, but smell perfume, and the scent of a pipe, along with Burnt sugar.
Each one we have encountered in this way has a different smell, and visual feetures about them… just as if we were encountering someone who we can touch.
We know these aren’t ghosts, because we have seen them on the inside as well. When we see them on the outside.. it a different kind of meeting.
Ok, here go’s. I only came across your blog today and was surprised or maybe even relieved in the fact that insiders actually do exist and that there is a name for them. I am quite shocked at the fact that thereās so much detail to the worlds within and the characteristics of the individuals, where I only recently accepted that they are in me. I also had a meeting with them in my happy place were we all sit around a conference table. I there at this meeting told them to shut up. I know best…..because of the sole fact that they are inside me and that I know all of them without knowing them. And well I am alone now most of the time. If itās a big subject or happening, sometimes someone would voice an opinion. But other than silence. I don’t think before I talk and I have to admit I sometimes surprise myself of what comes out of my mouth š What this blog is making me wonder though is that if it is the correct approach to living with this condition, if it is a condition at all. As to seeing them outside…maybe I do. I just always thought that I see spirits but maybe itās them….
I also suspect trauma in my childhood that makes me wonder more if i shouldn’t maybe invest more time in my insiders instead of keeping them in their place where ever that might be. I have a loving husband who excepted me as I am and love me so much. He supports me with all the help I need and thats another reason why I felt strong enough to tell them to let me just be who we are.
Your opinion will be much appreciated
Kind Regards
Hey Kathy, I am a new reader to your blog and just now came across this question. This question; “Do you see your insiders outside?” and another question that I have asked; “Does your system have structures inside that outside people put there?” are two questions I struggle with. The first makes me feel psychotic as none of my DID friends said that they see their insiders outside so i feel that must mean I am wrong, bad, psychotic, etc. Or so I thought. And the other question had mixed answers, some of my friends said yes and would talk about their internal worlds and some said no, they blacked out. That has me feeling confused. I can’t see or go into the different levels inside our internal world where the insiders live, but they talk about it with our therapist.
Back to your question, I do see others outside of the body. There are three people in the wall in front of me wherever I am, and if there isn’t a wall (like while driving or in a store) they hover around me. I can’t “see” them see them, but our internal world encompasses our house when at home and although I can’t describe what color clothes they have on I know I can “see” them.
I have actually seen my SF introject outside, but I was outside the body too. Does that make sense? I saw the body on the couch and the SF outside the body hurting the body on the couch. At the time an insider child was in control of the body. I didn’t see him as solidly as I would if the outside SF was actually here, and he wasn’t as solid as the body laying on the couch, but he was there. I felt like I was sleepwalking my way through a nightmare but I was awake.
This kind of thing happened recently when two of my dark side insiders had meltdowns. The little girl was outside the body wanting to fight with me but I didn’t fight back so eventually she crawled up close to me on the couch and cried herself to sleep. I had to move over so she could get comfortable and I started to put a blanket on her but thought that if I did so she would disappear back inside so I put it close to her so she could have some kind of comfort from that. That same night another insider took off his scary mask and costume and yelled and screamed at us. I saw him outside, in this external world just like the girl, just like the SF. I walked right up to him (i really did this) and told him it wasn’t ok with me for him to be screaming at us. He kept yelling anyway. Then he started crying. If you were there you would have seen me talking to a wall. I saw him.
About 20 years ago there was three different people in the same room at the same time. I saw the room from all three perspectives, not at the exact same time but during the event I switched between each vantage point. And from each point I saw the other two people outside, in the living room, separate from me. Yet there was only one real – as in outer – body in the room.
A couple times, once when I was 13 and once at 25, I was so caught up in the conversations I was having with my friends (that I “saw” outside of me) that I didn’t notice they weren’t eating the food I had set down for them. I cooked enough food for lunch for all of us and set their plates in front of them, across the table from me. After I was finished with my plate I was clearing the table and noticed they didn’t even touch their plates. In that exact moment, both times, they disappeared, and I freaked out. Now, I don’t feed them. If they want something to eat we share using this body. And every single day I sit somewhere in my house and chat with a few people who I know are really insiders but I talk out loud (mumble) with them. I don’t “see” them. I think my internal world gets bigger and includes my house. I space out and in that space is where I can see them.
Ok, that is my very long-winded answer to your question. My question, a plaguing question is; does that make me psychotic? Have you heard people with DID/DDNOS have these kinds of experiences? You said you have been asked this question and you have an answer. I sure would like to know what your answer is. How common is it? Am I dissociative or am I psychotic? Sometimes (often really) I feel like I am misleading my therapist because I have asked outside friends who have DID the questions and they don’t say but it seems to me like they are shocked or afraid or something. I am afraid I am schizophrenic and should be searching for a good anti-psychotic instead of learning to cooperate with hallucinations.
Thank you for the time, energy, and passion it takes you to blog about being a trauma therapist. I will definitely be printing off this article to discuss with my therapist as this very question haunts me. Your response would mean so much to us. Thanks again.
Sincerely,
The Collective
Heya Kathy.
I wrote this last year. I still have the same problems and worries and fears that are told in this response to your article here. I know it would take some time answering, but when or if you get the chance, can or will you please let me know what you think as a trauma therapist about what I said. I would very much appreciate it. Thanks. The Collective
Hi Collective —
I’ve gone back and re-read stuff on this article, and I think you’re right — it’s a long answer, and I may as well make a new post for that. I’ll get to work on that, and post that as soon as I have a good answer put together.
Thanks for the “flag” — about “here! here!” I can see that you posted that original question right when I was moving house (again!), so in all the mess and chaos of moving, I’m sure it flew right over my head, lol.
Short answer — you’re NOT crazy. And there are different answers from “being psychotic”. So I’m going to guess, no, you’re not psychotic either.
Warmly,
Kathy
I meant to bring your attention to this as I poured my heart out answering your question. I did not mean to come across as “here! here!” attention seeking, childish, demanding, whatever else that quote meant. I took considerable time and effort to tell my story as it pertained to this post thinking that you would explain your thoughts since you said you did have an answer to the question. I took this to my therapist and he said he would also like to know what your answer to your question is. I feel like I was used. I would still like to see a post with your answer to this, but this time around I wont hold my breath.
Your reply made me feel like a nobody. What I said didn’t matter, and you just wanted stories.
ummmmmm…. Collective,
Big miscommunication issue here. When I read what I wrote to you, I was thanking you for bringing an important topic back to my attention, and I acknowledged that I was moving house at the time of your original question, and hadn’t had time or space to respond properly to it …
I felt quite positive and receptive to what you said to me, and certainly meant or felt absolutely none of the negativity you have read into my comment.
Yes, I will write an additional post about that topic — but with no promises of any time limits. š
Hope that helps clear the air.
Warmly,
Kathy
Hello,
I sure would like to hear what you and/or Laura knows about this. Nobody we know gets it, our DID friends say they never seen, even in daydream or sleepwalky ways, their insiders outside. our t is not an expert and says he’d wants to hear answer too. i dont know how much you would want to charge for a answer but we can prolly pay something if you or Laura will tell us. We dont see see but we see talk, not really hear but we get so lost in our dd world we forget its not really real. sometimes it really scares me cuz we act out alot of stuff thats inside sometimes and all the time we spread out when we are home alone or whatever like that. please help me. my t has been sick for over a month and we think hes not coming back and we are all over the place and dark side people are showing up all over the place and sometimes we cant tell whats real and whats not. im sorry for everything. i think we need serious outside help. we need dr t but hes not coming back.
Hi. I have seen a little part outside of me. I was at the Dentist office. She ran ahead of me and hopped into the chair. For a moment I was afraid someone would see her too. Another time a similar thing happened at my home. I arrived home from the store and I got out of the car and a little skipped ahead of me down the side walk. Once more at night I saw two littles. I was in bed and one was like next to me, kinda front of me and the other was on the bed talking to her. The one talking was a little older than the other and offering instruction. (I guess sharing information) I have never heard anyone mention this subject until this blog. I have mentioned it in sessions with my Doctor but we did not talk about the subject . I would like to understand , what does it mean? JourneyD
Yes I can see inside & sometimes outside. All my lil people look like the Precious Moments coloring books. There! Now you can see us
Too. š We love to color ourselves. Well ‘some’ don’t look like cute children … but as we heal, lots of us do. š The outside people that look like really confuse us … they just stop us in our tracks! Hope others write about this. Very interesting.
For Me, the inital question itself is limited in that it refers only to “inside/outside” a limited thing called the Body. Oh my- But the World of Realms is so much more! In other words, I/We do indeed “see” the Others but I don’t actually conceptualize/see Our existence strictly in terms of “inside/outside” a mere body. We experience/see Our existence/Selves across many “Realms” and only ONE of the Realms contains the Body. Our Body is the tether/vessel/trap to the Realm with those other bodies (not Ours) and that is often why some Parts want to get rid of the Body- to make that/this Realm go away from Us!! So, back to the specific initial question Kathy posed… We “see” each other across/in different Realms and some Parts have memory of other Parts (from varying degrees of distance) interacting through the Body in that/this Realm. Sometimes some of them are in the Body in that/this Realm at the same time and then they “see” each other peripherally. Again, respectfully, I think the language Kathy used is limiting in that it assumes “seeing” is reduced experientially to “inside/outside the body” vs “inside or outside the Body in THIS Realm but also seeing each Other close up or far away (or not at all) across many Realms that are completely separate from the Body.” Perspective is everything, of course, as this may be interpretted merely as “inside the body” to someone who only lives in One Realm. Conceptually, it’s analogous to thinking in terms of UNIverse vs MULTIverse in the experiential world of ontological (meta)physics! An ontological bias, if you will. š
Our Body is but a Turnstile in and out of One Realm…
I have not had this happen to me or my insiders. Thanks Kathy, for sharing this. Should it ever happen, I will be aware of its origin and possible purpose(s).
I do see one part outside. She was the first one that showed up outside, although they’ve been with me for a long time. It freaked me out at first because I honestly thought there was someone there. It was like I was trying to focus on the therapist speaking, but I kept getting distracted by her. It was one of my little parts, a girl. She kept asking me questions and I couldn’t hear my therapist anymore. So it’s just her that I see outside, but she is still inside too.
Being a therapist AND a survivor, I’m finding your blog fascinating! I’m going to respond to your questions below:
“However, do you ever see your āinsidersā from the viewpoint as if they are standing outside and separate from your body? Meaning, do your insiders ever appear to you as if they are standing on the other side of the room?” Yes, rarely I do. The experience was as if I was viewing myself from the corner of the room, looking down at myself.
“Do all your insiders have the ability to do this? Or do only certain ones have this ability?” Hmmm, good question. I’m not completely sure but I think that my primary host self is really good at dissociating and the one who maintains that ability.
“When the vision is of a former perpetrator, how do you explain this? Is this an internal introject showing themselves on the outside? Is it something else? Do you call these visions hallucinations?” I personally do not have visions of a perpetrator. I wouldn’t describe the experience as a hallucination, as though it is perceived as something external to the self. I’ve always been well aware that this is still a part of myself, something from within, however distorted things may seem.
There have been times in the past that some of us have seen each other on the outside, but not often. Usually we just sense each other there.
Thank you very much for the post Kathy. I appreciate it. For me, this situation has been cropping up for the past few months. I was planning a trip to my hometown when I started having what I thought were hallucinations. Though several people who know of my condition think that maybe they aren’t hallucinations at all but a projection of my internal perp. It’s very disconcerting and upsetting when it happens. It catches me off guard every time and makes it difficult to function. Do you think when you can see an internal perp it should actually be called a hallucination or should we make up some other term for it? Either way I’d love to know how others have dealt with this or a similar situation.
Thank you.
Peoplepuzzlepieces
Yes – we do see each other “outside” the body. We will sometimes give each other a sideways glance when sharing a though, giving one another “the eye”, or a telling off. Never across the room from me/us. Just side by side, when at all. And they can each see themselves in a mirror and see what they look like. NEVER ever tell people in a hospital (or clinicians who don’t believe in/ understand DID) you can see your (use favorite term here) alters, parts, insiders. This will get you the wrong diagnonsense and possibly treated in ways you don’t want to be treated. In therapy, sometimes one of us will turn to another and speak to them. My T takes it all in stride. I do not believe for any reason these “sightings” are hallucinations. Hallucinations are seeing things that are non-real, not really there. Our parts, alters, insiders ARE real and they ARE there and (ok so i will also contradict myself)…. losing train of thought. Like, I will hear one of them say something snarky to me, and I’ll look to the right at her with a sidelong glance. And then there is just the wall or the furnature, whatever. But we make eye contact in that instant before the “we outside” goes back to “we inside”. I did make that mistake in the Hosp once – and then told them truthfully that I knew no one was there (“GOOD! I’m VERY glad you know this!!!”, she said.) Uh huh. I kept my mouth shut and didn’t tell her that they WERE there a minute ago and now they are not. We all have to be “quick on our feet”, outside and inside! I am not sure of the littles can see me or the other adults “outside”, but they do see each other. I can sometimes see the littles outside, but mostly it is the other adults I see. Like others have mentioned, it is mostly all of us looking out through our one set of eyes (that change colors in real life, and are also different colors per each persona).
Oh and we do not each have personal landscapes – there is only the external world for us all unless we do a guided meditation and go into our safe place – but I have to take us there, they don’t go on their own.
Good question!
Kiyacats >^..^<
Well, sometimes if I am really anxious about doing something or having to go somewhere, I’d swear to you I was seeing someone on the inside get up and do that something the outside…usually a social event or just some situation I’d reeeeeally rather not be involved in at all.
I often sit in the background while one of the team does something else, but while they’re in control of the body, it’s more of a sharing so I don’t see them. Well, I take that back. If I look in the mirror, sometimes I’ll see them instead of me. I don’t think that’s what you’re talking about tho.
For the most part no, but in that rare occasion it only lasts for a second.
I would think it possible easily because as I understand it and have experienced, it is not uncommon while during trauma for a part to ‘float to the ceiling’ and watch something happening to someone else they don’t yet recognize. Not sure that’s what you’re talking about…am I in the ball park?
It hasn’t happened to me, but we all are wondrous and different individuals. Thanks for sharing your perspective.
Well, I guess it’s time for my “Coming Out Party!” *laughing* This post seems (perhaps?) an interesting place to do so as well?
Lots of terms; alters, parts, insiders (here.) I don’t care. Semantics. So far, I think I’m the only person in this situation. My dead twins. Also, lost in utero. I jumped for joy when I found a place online for all us Womb Twin Survivors online. If you are one, email me. I have also written about this on my blog.
Inside? Yes. We all talk. Four of them: Melissa, Jason, Amelia and Bruce. Visual, all different personalities, voices sometimes vague presences, handwriting changes (outside but not visual?)
There have been two age changes with them. Personality changes (one more permanent-but can go back to original state.) I find that unnerving at times. Although Jason now has Asperger’s like me. o.O
I’ve had one who wanted to talk to someone else who had DID (this wouldn’t qualify for a diagnosis but picture a Venn Diagram!)
It was done via email with my “assistance?” Whoa. That’s…quite an experience for your entire body and brain. I’ve done it twice (it was Jason) and with the same person. I collapsed on my bed and took a long time to recover! *laughing*
Oh, I forgot visceral feelings. I think Jason’s getting a bit upset with me writing this. He’s 9-years-old and the most sensitive as we were the closest in the womb. I’m having problems breathing now and it feels like my heart is racing in my abdomen.
That means I should probably finish this quick. Now my typing skills are going. Is that you Jas’? Yep. It’s him.
So, yes this is long but like I said, my “Coming Out Party” so you (Kathy) and others can get most of the picture. I’m a long time reader and subscriber.
Seen anything outside? I tried to commit suicide in early 2011 and ended up in the ICU for three days. Sure, Coma Patients can dream, but that was the first time I saw Jason.
I asked him some time ago why none of the others showed up? Why just him? That was when he confirmed we were the closest in the womb together.
So, a weird sort of outside?
Okay, buddy! I just gotta proof this! Relax! You’re killing me! *laughs a little more with a bit of breath* We’re just one big happy family! One big crazy family at times!
Sometimes I wanna strangle them all!
Take care, everyone.
‘I know that people with Dissociative Identity Disorder can see their internal worlds’ ….is that *everyone* who’s D.I.D, Kathy?
Me, the (I think) host/core can’t but other parts of me/we do.
Another one of me sketched herself and some others, who want to speak in therapy.
I had no idea who they are until I saw that A5 page.
Am not sure if I’ve seen introjects externally, or if it’s been reality, or if it’s been hallucinations. Its frightening, to say the least.
Think because, on the whole our system has been denied,dismissed, etc…6 months post scid-d+diagnosis, the awareness, acceptance, etc are very much on the periphary, still.
Sorry. Have confused myselves now.
Really interesting questions, though.
From all.<3
Hi Kathy! It’s been a long time. I never have seen any of my “parts” outside of me. The only thing I notice is that it feels like I have many eyes peering out through mine. The information goes in and gets distributed accordingly and I don’t always know where it goes. When I am in therapy I know certain parts tune in more astutely than others. Some sit and observe from within but I don’t know a lot about them. So far I am just becoming aware and comfortable with the idea of them watching. I can tell you that sometimes it is chaos in my head. Maybe down the road what you mention will happen…I don’t know.