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Pictures of DID – “How I View My Head”

By Kathy Broady MSW Leave a Comment

Here is yet another unique view of Dissociative Identity Disorder.

 

“How I View My Head”

Isn’t this an interesting picture!

It almost looks three-dimensional.  Very cool!

Once again, please remember, I’ll be writing out some of my thoughts without having conversations with the artist.  I am presenting these thoughts for educational purposes only, and my guesses or impressions could be wrong.  If I were speaking to the artist for real, I would certainly be asking questions instead of first voicing my comments.  However, for the purposes of discussing elements of dissociation, I will be speaking openly even without knowing if my comments are accurate or not.

So if a trauma survivor with a dissociative disorder presented this artwork to me in a therapy session, my thoughts would include:

The first impression I see is the complicated twisting, turning, and complexity of issues.  I can see that the journey has not been easy, and there have been many difficult points along the way.  I see some smooth pathways, but the overlapping, tangled blocks and obstacles are prominent.

There’s a lot of movement and activity in this picture.  What’s happening?  Where’s everyone going?  How chaotic does it feel inside your head?  Everything except the one-inch strip on the right edge feels busy and intense.  How did the area on the right become calmer?  What can you say about these differences?

I am assuming that the bottom left, with the swirls of green and yellow is the front of the head, with the doors being like the beginning of the hairline.  From this perspective, the doors and pathways back have the appearance of being like hair blowing in the wind.  This is a cool layering of the picture as it gives of feel of the outer head as well as the inner head.

My first impression of the doors is that they represent different insiders with the big doors being adults and the little doors being younger child parts.  The doors could also represent different struggles in life, or different events that created a set of parts in the overall system, with each group having their own life pathways and life experiences separate from the others.  Maybe there are upstairs / downstairs layers to this system.  The upper / lower doors could represent all kinds of things if that was the case.  What do you think the sets of double doors represent?

When you open the doors, what do you see behind each of the doors?  When can the doors be opened, and who can open them?  Are the doors locked?  Can anyone open them?

Is there significance to the number of doors?  If so, how?

Do the pathways represent memories or the life events of particular system parts?  When the pathways are separate and on their own, are those times when the life-events were not shared with others in the system? Does the information on these pathways get shared with others or not?  Each pathway has splotches of darker color, or alternating light / dark colorings.  What do these splotches of color represent?  Does the light / dark coloring represent the conflict and struggles of your system?  For example, do you have some system parts that are “light side” parts, vs. others that are “dark side” parts?   How do these pathways demonstrate those internal conflicts?

Notice the various crossing points of the pathways.  What is the significance of these points? These places where the pathways cross and overlap might represent times when life experiences, memories, and events were shared between the different parts of the system.  The overlap could represent times of co-consciousness and shared communication or conflicts between internal parts.  At each point of overlap, the colors turn black.  What does this mean?

Color galaxy
Color galaxy (Photo credit: @Doug88888)

Of course, I am going to ask about the meaning of the colors. 

Colors are typically important, and different survivors will connect different feelings / beliefs with various colors. 

With this picture, I would ask about the colors of each door and pathway, but I would also ask about the combination of colors.  For example, why does the mustard / yellow doors have a pink pathway?  Why does the pink / salmon doors have a green pathway?  These color combinations could be relevant in some way.  What do they mean to you?

The blue pathway coming out of the purple doors is different from the other paths.  It is thinner and straighter, and has few splotches.  Is there any meaning to this?  Who takes this path?

Do the doors represent more about the outer world, while the pathways represent more about the inner worlds?  The doors are brighter than most of the rest of the picture.  If the doors represent what is seen to the public world, are the brightly colored, cheerful doors trying to hide the amount of darkness and depression hidden behind the doors?

Do system parts come out from behind the doors?  If so, who comes out of each of the different doorways?  If I were to see you when a “yellow door person” was presenting, how would that be different from when a “green door person” was presenting, vs. when a “purple door person” was presenting, etc.?

What are the black splotches all over the inner areas?  Are they unknown areas?  Are they scary memories?  Are they insiders that cause problems or self-sabotage?  Notice the black inner lining around the area where the black splotches are located.  What does this black line represent?  Is it a barrier of some sort?  Does it block out awareness?  If the black splotches are something of a negative or stressful nature, it is good to see that they are contained within a particular area of the inner world.  The ability to contain the scary things into one area could be considered a personal strength.

What is the significance of the light faint black background?  Does this represent feelings of depression, or low self-esteem, or unworthiness, or shame?   Do you feel surrounded by the dark?  Does it feel like darkness permeates your life?  If so, what does this mean?

What does the light green door at the top represent?  All the pathways lead to this place.  It is representative of internal connection, blending, cooperation, or integration?  It is the place of healing, hope, and health?  Is the light green door the goal or a destination?

The light green door is surrounded (protected?) by a similar layering of green and yellow squiggles as at the opposite corner of the picture.  What do these repeated colors represent?  How do these squiggles protect the green door?

This top corner looks safer, happier, and more peaceful than the rest of the picture.  Does the light green door represent the way so many survivors describe a floating away, up to a corner of the room during times of abuse?   Does it represent a state of dissociation?  Does the light green door represent the part of your internal system who has been kept separate from the trauma?  Often times, there are certain parts that are blocked off and separated from the trauma, amnesiac and unaware of the abuse.  Who resides behind that door?

The light green door has a window.  It is the only door with a window.  What does the window represent?  Does someone from the other side of the door look out the window?  Is the window for people on this side to see past the door?

There are so many interesting complexities to this picture.

What else do you see?

How do you view YOUR head?

 

 

Warmly,

Kathy 

 

 

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Comments

  1. kiyacat says

    March 7, 2010 at 11:34 pm

    MultiPixies, all,
    I’ve been lost in space all this time, and losing time badly. I just moved too, and thought I’d been here 2 weeks, when really it’s been a month! I don’t know where time goes.
    Pixies, i did read your post and your description reminded me of the (dare I say ‘old times’) when clandestine meetings of extreme knowledge took place in the cark, under cover for fear of persecution. To us, there’s almost a bit of adventure feeling in there (not like ‘yay w’re on vacation’ but like Indy Jones and the Temple of Doom). It’s dangerous, but you’re with others, it’s dark but you’re exchanging vital information.
    hope that is all ok.
    kiyacat

    Reply
  2. soulfulgrrl says

    February 27, 2010 at 11:23 pm

    Deborah of Pixies,

    i (the host) live in dark most of the time inside. i have also heard there are many inside that live in the dark.
    i think that if you want something bad enough inside it can happen. it’s just a matter of going for it. finding it. i believe you will get there. i know from my friend that the others inside have very vibrant places and i too sometimes do. mostly i am in the dark though. alone.

    i know from my friend also that most all of my insiders have a “no talk” rule. different consequences for different bits of information shared. You aren’t alone.

    i hope this was okay to say.

    soul

    Reply
  3. multipixie9 says

    February 27, 2010 at 2:41 am

    I had hoped someone would comment on my description of how my inside family functions. I feel overlooked and kinda jealous. I don’t like admitting that; it’s not exactly admirable. More than that I wish someone could tell me if very many d.i.d. folk have a system of insiders who exist in the dark. My spiritual views value light over dark when it is used as a metaphor for describing good/evil, being well/being sick.

    Most of all I want to get well enough where I can allow myself and my others to see our reality in technicolor – whatever those colors and shapes represent. Knowing my insiders in this two dimensional, limited way makes me feel distant and alienated from the world and life around me. I find other’s comments on their mental organization of their life and and alters. I love the many ways we make life bearable and workable – how we bring some kind of order in chaos, confusion and pain.

    Do any of you have any comments on what we wrote in our 2 posts?

    Deborah of Pixies

    Reply
  4. csunbean says

    February 26, 2010 at 11:30 am

    Hi Soul
    Oh no. I don’t upset easy. Thanks for feedback
    csunbean

    Reply
  5. soulfulgrrl says

    February 26, 2010 at 9:54 am

    csunbean –

    i don’t think i have an incredible art ability. i am creative but far from being an artist. i don’t color pictures to be artistic. i color and do art to express myself where words can’t. i couldn’t have told anyone how my head looked with words so i had to draw it… even then, i feel like i lost a few things in how i wanted to convey them because i can’t “draw”.

    be gentle with yourself.

    As a dear friend of mine says… “treat yourself as you would treat me, your friend”… it changes a lot of things…

    hope i didn’t upset you with any of that.

    soul

    Reply
  6. csunbean says

    February 25, 2010 at 11:27 pm

    The door in the back intrigues me..as if this is the way out somehow such as out of the body? Another thing that caught my eye was was the way the colors change and overlap where two lanes intersect. In my view this is where different parts share information- communicate or see each other, but other lanes are totally seperate and don’t blend or cross each other’s path.
    Kathy on subject of art… Seems like most people with D.I.D. have great art ability and since I don’t can’t be …

    Reply
  7. exhaleblogger says

    February 25, 2010 at 10:18 am

    It’s amazing how people are able to express themselves through art…and how people like you can see the hidden messages. This is how we see our head http://expandingthecirclethrougharttherapy.blogspot.com/2009/12/brain-aug-2109.html
    Exhale

    Reply
  8. soulfulgrrl says

    February 25, 2010 at 9:40 am

    It was interesting to see my picture up here. i have read and re-read and re-read all that was asked and said and i am going to answer them all to see where i was when this was drawn. i drew this even before i knew about everyone on the inside. This was my version of my head prior to knowing all the chaos. Maybe i can get some help from someone inside to see maybe what all was going on with me during that time.

    i looked at my picture a lot too and it is chaotic. Yet, that is still how my head feels a lot of the time. i know now what the doors represent and the paths. Yet, i don’t know some of the other answers. It is worth working on.

    Kathy, thank you for opening a whole new world to me with this picture. i am looking forward to seeing what comes out of this.

    soul

    Reply
  9. multipixie9 says

    February 25, 2010 at 3:44 am

    Early on we chose to turn the lights out so that no one can see the systems and those who thought them into being and those who experienced the abuse and programming. We are highly verbal and were warned through excruciating fear and pain to NEVER reveal ANYTHING to ANYONE. Any ideas of who we are and what we are like come to us like the words that describe life in a book. We did our best to comply with them through the terror they evoked in us..

    Sometimes we feel the best description of us is the picture of a commitee who meet in the dark, doing our best to exist without a real structure to guide us. Those who are older than the smallest of our littles (the tinys) understand why we live this way. The tiny survivors just need a savior and when their issues make them need someone we ‘re beginning to let God and our T into our living nightmare. Someday we hope God will help us have a 3 dimensonal system with color – like moving from silent movies to HD movies with 3D glasses and light, color, action, scents and emotional content that matches what is really happening and who we really are. Someday we WILL have that and we will feel like Pinocchio as he is turned into a real boy. There just HAS to be more to life than what we have lived.

    We crave a life that is a woven tapestry where we all have our place and being…a vibrant, colorful living story…

    Reply
  10. thelittlestsurvivor says

    February 24, 2010 at 7:17 pm

    i looked at this picture a lot too. the paths nearly make my eyes hurt. they look like they pop off the page, as if they have somewhere else to go.

    Reply
  11. wolfpack40 says

    February 24, 2010 at 2:49 pm

    I keep looking at this picture….and all that goes
    through my mind is….streams of thought. Guess that
    is what it reminds me of.
    Loving these

    Reply

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