Many people enter the therapy process with minimal awareness of their trauma history.
When the trauma survivors are dissociative, they have the ability to block out an awareness of their trauma. They may know that their family had problems, or that their family was dysfunctional, etc, but they may believe they were never abused.
However, blocking out conscious awareness of trauma does not mean that the survivors have no effects of that trauma.
Using denial and dissociative skills does not mean that the abuse did not happen. Denial means that the person simply is refusing to acknowledge or accept the fact that they were traumatized. They are pretending or not realizing they were not hurt, when they were actually hurt very badly.
Even if the memories of abuse are hidden from the survivor’s awareness, blocked trauma / unresolved trauma creates very noticeable and obvious symptoms that can be easily seen in their every day lives.
People will enter therapy aware of some of the following symptoms, but they may not realize these complications are suggestive of unresolved trauma issues.
20 Signs of Unresolved Trauma
1. Addictive behaviors
Addictive behaviors excessively turning to drugs, alcohol, sex, shopping, gambling as a way to push difficult emotions and upsetting trauma content further away.
2. Inability to tolerate conflicts
An inability to tolerate conflicts with others – having a fear of conflict, running from conflict, avoiding conflict, maintaining skewed perceptions of conflict
3. Inability to tolerate intense feelings
An inability to tolerate intense feelings, preferring to avoid feeling by any number of ways
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4. Innate belief that they are bad
An innate belief that they are bad, worthless, without value or importance
5. Black and white thinking
Black and white thinking, all or nothing thinking, even if this approach ends up harming themselves
6. Suicidal thoughts
Chronic and repeated suicidal thoughts and feelings
7. Disorganized attachment patterns
Disorganized attachment patterns – having a variety of short but intense relationships, refusing to have any relationships, dysfunctional relationships, frequent love/hate relationships
8. Dissociation
Dissociation, spacing out, losing time, missing time, feeling like you are two completely different people (or more than two)
9. Eating Disorders
Eating disorders – anorexia, bulimia, obesity, etc.
10. Excessive Sense of Self-Blame
Excessive sense of self-blame – taking on inappropriate responsibility as if everything is their fault, making excessive apologies
11. Inappropriate Attachments
Inappropriate attachments to mother figures or father figures, even with dysfunctional or unhealthy people
12. Intense Anxiety
Intense anxiety and repeated panic attacks
13. Intrusive Thoughts, Flashbacks, Body Memories, Nightmares
Intrusive thoughts, upsetting visual images, flashbacks, body memories / unexplained body pain, or distressing nightmares
14. Depression
Ongoing, chronic depression
15. Victim Role
Repeatedly acting from a victim role in current day relationships
16. Rescuer Role
Repeatedly taking on the rescuer role, even when inappropriate to do so
17. Self-Harm
Self-harm, self-mutilation, self-injury, self-destruction
(More educational videos about self injury and other related topics available below.)
18. Suicidal actions
Suicidal actions and behaviors, failed attempts to suicide
19. Perpetrator Role
Taking the perpetrator role / angry aggressor in relationships
20. Intense Fears
Unexplained but intense fears of people, places, things
These same symptoms can be applied for survivors already working in therapy. Attending regular therapy does not mean the clients have resolved their trauma issues or that they are even working in that general direction. Many therapy clients will continue to deny, dissociate, and refuse to look at their trauma even if they are aware of their daily struggles.
If you are experiencing a number of the symptoms listed above, ask yourself if you are truly ready to address your trauma issues, or if you find it more comfortable to continue living with these struggles.
Is it harder to face how you were abused and who abused you? Or is it harder to live a life full of depression, anxiety, thoughts of suicide, troubled relationships, extreme fears, physical pain, and addictions?
Running from your trauma history will not help you feel better. In the short-run, you might not have to face the issues, but the cost in the long-run of unresolved trauma weighs more heavily than you might suspect.
Your life can be better than it is.
Be brave – face your trauma issues!
I wish you the very best in your healing journey.
Warmly,
Kathy
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I sent this text to a close friend. With out my knowledge of even sending it. It’s been a difficult day Obsessively cleaning everything and having no control over it. anything that could go in the wash machine went into the wash machine. Then into the dry. LEGO hard plastic animals and stuff toys. It’s fall here in New England. So mice are finding their way into homes in the Northeast United States This year dear overpopulated with them. That means it brings more inside.
I’m no to this primary parts every time we caught a mouse in a trap, a small volcano was starting to the irrupt.
It was interesting to read that text . Gibberish was coming out of my mouth. no idea what it was saying to me I could hear me say but I didn’t know what it was saying watching a poor little child being tortured what a messed up thing that’s going on right now. To Witness search ask being performed I can’t even express upset and How terrified I was that I couldn’t stop it from happening to her.
Hi Lori 2,
Wow … lots of turmoil and confusion. It may not be important for you to understand what was being said. Just know that someone inside needed to vent this. That is a purging, of sorts, of their trauma and that is a good thing. Silence traps the trauma inside to grow and fester and fill us with toxic thoughts, beliefs and memories. Getting that stuff out, no matter how, helps in the healing process enormously I feel.
It is gut-wrenching to see and feel in flashbacks, memories and body sensations what our little selves endured. I have felt great shame in the past that I have let my little ones hold on to the trauma because I was too fearful to see. I am opening that door now and am going through the trauma for myself. Horrible but healing in the long-run I know.
Our little ones could not speak of what they were going through let alone be comforted, grieve, get angry … feel the full scope of emotions that would quite rightly go with the abuse that they (we) suffered. That is what makes the healing process so difficult. Our insiders and Us (the folks out front) have to give ourselves the courageous, gentle, caring space to process those feelings.
Know that what your insider wrote here, Lori 2, is their attempt to get those feelings out. If this was one of my insiders, I would thank them for sharing their feelings, tell them that you do not fully understand what they are saying but am always willing to listen and encourage them to tell you more (if they want to). In other words, your insider has opened a door here for you. Thank them for that and see what they are willing to share inside.
ME+WE
10/14/18
I thought it was interesting that you used the word Jehovah. Are you one of Jehovah’s Witnesses?
Hello Cd
I don’t think so . But anything is possible. Far as I know this body never been baptized into any religion.
Something I wonder why it wasn’t.
It’s 20 years past that my abuse ended and here I am sitting in a recovery house – I just stepped up from the hospital’s behavioral health unit 2 weeks ago. It all still feels like yesterday to me and I’m trying to learn to live my life this way. It’s really unfair for me, and all those that make up me, to be in this situation. I’m sure everyone here can relate. I’m just touching the tip of the berg in learning to deal and cope and live with my parts. I have been in this recovery house for almost 2 weeks and I will be leaving tomorrow. I’m looking forward to working with my regular therapist on these things. I guess I just wanted to share and get active in this community. Thanks for reading.
Hi jmnb,
So wonderful to hear your voice here. Welcome!!!
We have all been where you are at the beginning of your healing journey. It is a path of many little steps. I just want you to know here and now that understanding, coping, cooperation, co-consciousness and healthful living is possible. Yes – it does feel like the abuse is here and now because some of our folks are still stuck back there. Part of our work is to help them know and understand that they are safe now. That takes time and building communication with our insiders. But, it is all doable.
Thank you so much for sharing here. Personally, it is always wonderful to hear new voices here not because I want anyone to be suffering but because I know that you do not have to suffer alone. You are part of a wonderful community now jmnb. You are not alone. We are here to listen, support and offer help when and where we can.
Wishing you all the best as you transition to your regular therapist.
ME+WE
10/29/18
Thanks for commenting back! This seems to be a very supportive community.
I could barely sleep last night. Not sure if it was the typically uncomfortable not-your-mattress mattress or the excitement of leaving today. Or nervousness. I feel ready and I think my body is ready but maybe a part of me is not ready. There is a lot of support and peace here… support and peace that I know I will not get at home. :/
My home environment is as much a mess as I am. As if I had a hard enough time just dealing with myself! That’s a story for another thread I suppose.
I’m so ready to see my dog. He’s my emotional support animal and I love him to pieces. I guess we can’t attach pictures here… You would all love his adorableness. 🙂
Hi jmnb,
You are taking a big step today. I have been thinking of you and sending positive energy your way. I am sorry to hear that your home environment is not supportive or peaceful. ☹ Yes, certainly something that you can talk about here if you want to. We would also be anxious to hear how your transition home is going.
Oh you have a dog. How wonderful is that. You are sure to get a lot of loving from him. Check out Kathy’s article — Cats and Dogs and Trauma Survivors. Some times our four-legged friends are our best support and listeners not to mention their awesome cuddle-factor.
Take gentle care of yourself as you make these changes jmnb and know that you have support whenever you want it.
ME+WE
10/30/18
Hello janb
Welcome to The community. I find that we are very honest here . It’s so helpful that Kathy reviews every post befor it’s public.
My name is Missy and I’m one of many
Hey jmnb,
I just wanted to say welcome to DD. I think it’s great that you’re here and I hope you find all the help and comfort you would like.
It sounds like you’ve been going through quite a lot, to put it mildly. You are a survivor for sure! I really hope the transition back to life outside of the recovery house is harmless for you. It may not be easy, but I hope you can use what you learned in the recovery house out in “real life”.
It’s always intimidating when you first start working on system and trauma work. It really is all about taking one step at a time, remaining as teachable as possible and just doing the communication. Which is a lot by the way, but you can do it! And you’re not alone, because we here are all at different places on the journey.
Anyway, welcome!
MultipleMe
10/30/18
Sleeping is not an option tonight I guess not really sure what’s happening. The body will not settle down. When I set on my bed it just gets back up.i am forcing myself at lest to stay in my room. Just for safety reason. It’s not fun not knowing what going on with in yourself.
Hello MeanMan,
I am so sorry that sleep did not want to come last night. I have had those times when my body seems to be charged with an electrical pulse and there is just no calming it down … no rest to be had. I try to ask my insiders what is going on but, more-often-then-not, they are silent. My doctor gave me sleeping pills to try and settle me down and that works sometimes. I also try to meditate to calm down my head. Usually I have to just wait it through. I will go to the living room, put on some mindless TV and wait for my body to fall asleep. Makes for a really rough day the next day with no sleep so I am mindful to be extra gentle with myself.
This is all to say MeanMan that some times you need to ride these times through and try to find understanding later. It helps if you have some strategies for dealing with these times worked out ahead of time. Above all, be kind with yourself. Your inside system is working some important stuff out and you need to just be patient and gentle with yourself. Try to do some fun and soothing things today.
Sending positive energy your way.
ME+WE
11/17/18
Hi MeanMan,
Ugh, not getting any sleep is the worst. Especially when we don’t know why or how to solve it. I get restless sometimes and not want to sleep, so I have to take something to help me go down. Is there a way you can take something that will help you relax physically that might help the mental and emotional part of you relax too? If you don’t think so, sometimes establishing a soothing bedtime routine will help. You probably already know that, but sometimes we need a reminder, right? Maybe writing about it here can help too?
Here’s to hoping you get some rest tonight and always,
MultipleMe
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Therapist using programming words maybe triggering Reality she is trustworthy but mind control history says she not.
Not sure where should be posts.
how do you get over someone that was trustworthy but know feel threatened?
most of the time the M/C comment can be pushed away. With the statement of, this is now not then.
Many common positive word were used on us for evil reason. The learning of the meanings were twisted into negative self destructive behaviors.
Two of the words were put together recently. Now parts are thrown into a state of Panic on who to trust.
How do we get back on track ? We need to see the truth about the words and know that these word are good words . they cannot control us anymore. With forcing us to do bad things.
The anxiety the body is having just writing it is overwhelming. The feet are runny . Even though we are in bed .
Hi Jessie,
Good for you for writing here. That was a very brave and smart thing for you to do. You know that your therapist is someone that you can trust and that she is using the words to help you not to hurt you like in the past. That is very good progress to have made. But, they are still scary and a bit triggering I am hearing.
Here is what I would suggest (if you can … this could be really hard to do) – take a piece of paper and write down all of the words that confuse you. You know that they can be good words but they were used for bad reasons in the past. So, give your therapist a list of these words so she can know which ones are hard for you to hear. Then she can start to help you know why these words hurt and maybe how you can see these words now as being for good.
Good job Jessie. Keep talking to your therapist about this so she knows what is happening. We are all here to help and listen too okay?!
Your friend,
ME+WE
02/11/19